The Truth Hurts

Down… Up…

When  you have something taken away you truly believe in as if you never were really important to its cause, it causes a deep, burning effect that grows more after the initial separation.  You wonder just how it is that you were tossed aside as if you never mattered or had no impact.  I’m not gonna sit around and sugar-coat it:  I was fucked.  I was fucked over not because I wasn’t the most conventional of individuals but because I posed a threat to the security of those above me.  I challenged those that were happy with the status quo and security of their own self-interests rather than what I was initially taught when I came on board, and that was to think for the good of the many.  Well my sacrifice may have saved some time but to sit here and say I am over it would be a complete lie.  The fact of the matter is that the more and more each day goes by I cannot help but feel complete and utter contempt for those who pushed me out the door and now those whom I thought would want to keep contact open but have since closed that door.  There are a few of you there, especially those with a hand in my oust and a few who have since swept me under their proverbial rug, that I cannot forgive and will never forgive.  I am vengeful and I will get the last laugh, because when your livelihood is taken away without just cause or reason, and you are looking up at the heavens wondering where it all went wrong and how and why, I want you to remember what you did to me and how you did me away for your own gain and never gave one thought to anyone but yourselves.  Then you will know how it truly feels to be stabbed in the back without warning.  I know that once I am back on my feet, much of this thought process internally will subside because I will no longer be searching for security and hope.  I know that idle time does not always foster congeneality.  I do know that the time has been an important tool in developing many conclusions about others and truths about the self, and that is a positive thing.  You really come to a self-actualization as well as gain a full understanding of those who really matter in life.  I will carry on and I will survive.  But for those who put me here and for those who didn’t give a shit after I was gone, know again, that I will always remember and never forget.  You have afflicated me in ways I never have felt before and hope and pray I never will again.  Just remember that one day you too will feel this pain and develop this anger and hatred.  If you do, don’t come calling my way for sympathy because you have done to others as you will have then had done to you.  Write that down.  Remember it.  Live with it.  Love it…

Now on the flip-side, all this negative could manifest itself in you, and do not think for one second that it has with me regardless of the thoughts outlined above.  One does not succeed and reach true, innate success without capitalizing on the opportunities presented by the downfall of structural status quo.  The opportunity begs of you to answer the question: “Who am I?” and “What truly makes me happy?”  Once you uncover those truths you can truly maximize your potential.  So with that being said, it’s time to take the plunge and see just how far down the rabbit hole goes…